Ouch

I'm doing physical therapy with pilates. man, it hurts. There is no way around it.
I kinda like it cause i like to move but , after, I'm hurting.
I pretty much need to build a lot of my flexibility back which I'm told is normal but I;m so in shock that an injury can affect so many muscles.
I like my MAVS sports doc. cool guy.
So my right side of back, leg, behind, knee are all involved and my right ABS! tight like heck.
oh the price of sports.
I'm so tired. Pretty much my pt/doc need to remind me that I need to hold back cause I'm crazy. I will run all day if I'm told to.
hard lesson for me: hold back, strange concept.
it feels like you have an accident every other day to retrain those muscles.
WHERE IS MY MASSAGE LADY?

Compassion

This is what I have learned about myself. I don't have enough compassion and I'm judging to harshly. The reasons lay in the past , so I choose and I am willing to be kind and soft towards myself and others. I still have opinions and values but at the end of the day it is how much i love myself and my fam and my friends and my animals and my enemies.
GUYS we really all need to work ob LOVE and compassion to be way up on the list when we approach ourselves or others. It is what God does and what Jesus does and what seem to be hard for us to do without criticism or a "but". Love is unconditional or it is co-dependent on someone, an idea, a need.
There are so many people in the world and yet we feel lonely sometimes.
There is tons of money, and people starve.
There is not enough Love.
And now that Tom Cruise is divorced maybe one of you will find love HAHAHAAH jk, he has only love for him. Oops I judge , again.

It's getting harder...

these days to stand for what you believe in. Why? because we are in a politically correct culture.
why? don't ask me . I'm Israeli, there is no correct in expressiveness where I come from.
So? I believe we should not be afraid to express what we believe in and what our opinions are and also, a good darn argument will not kill anyone. call it discussion if you are afraid of arguments.
I could argue for example that when people cuss all the time they seem less intelligent than they really are and that is sad, because they could be very very smart. So why? Is it cool to cuss every second word? I think it is funny most of the time cause it does not make any sense in the sentence.
Why not cuss? Cause one day you'll forget it's your boss and say very crude words and ...oops.
Good night and Good luck.

In the name of Who?

So I saw Horton sees Who and I loved it. I wonder to myself many times if animated films(not conclusive)might be smarter and funnier than well, not animated. I think that the characters are so funny and interesting because you pretty much create whatever you want and the looks may go or not with the voice , the size may or not go with strength or goodness and the colors may or not portray the real color of a kangaroo etc. There is so much freedom in animation and you can get away with much more messages than in actors film because the messages hide behind the seemed
innocence of unreal creatures.

So I laughed the whole time and I have to mention the Emo son out of 97 siblings , all girls. What a a cute weird Dr. Seuss character, quiet , emotional, sad, deep, and a great hair cut.
There are many great personalities in the film and cutest thing of all is the mention of all the babies of the people who work in blue sky studios in the credits!!

Temple and Eddie boy

All the weddings this past year reminded me of the year before Ed and got sealed and how awesome/hard it was. Eddie being the romantic gentleman tat he is, was and is the perfect courting guy ever. He always write the tear producing poems and brings fresh flowers and surprises me with dates and candy that I like. Now, I talk in present tense cause he is still like that today. He has been in med school forever and still he menages to be a kind, loving husband.
What I thought at first that he must be gay, knowing how to dance, being so fun, Mr. social and sings too. But the way he looked at me was pretty clear to my sister that he is no gay. Well, off course I thought that for a very short time since he was so nervous around me and would do everything I ask. Whenever I listen to a talk by a church leader about hoe to treat your spouse, I think about Ed hearing many of those talks cause he is such a good example.
The hard thing was to keep my hands off him so we can be sealed for time and all eternity. After that, party!!!
It was hard to love someone so much and not be able to sleep in the same bed with them and to miss them and to have to be around family so we can stay sane.
But there was something so beautiful, pure, spiritual about it that made us get even closer. It was the first challenge we had together and we had to pass it each on his own and together. We spent 6 hours at church(3 mine 3 his) and seating with him, singing hymns , hearing his voice and holding his hand-priceless.
We spent time with Mark Powell who needs a lot of physical help and we both understood that we want to serve others. We learned so much from Mark, he is so sweet, he gave us way more than we gave him.
We talked a lot about what is important to us and what we like or fear or want.
We counted stars and the amazing thing is we feel the same today and we know that it is a blessing from God having put our faith in Him to help us through very scary moments like when the INS told me " you will not be able to stay in the US unless you get marries now" and " why didn't you get married a few months ago?"
Well INS dears, we had a thing with the Lord and we had to prepare for me to be a member for a year to enter the holy Temple. So we prayed and prayed and ...prayed. And we went to do temple work, and I cried on his shoulder, and cried some too. And we laughed A LOT. We still do all this things and it amazes me.
I am always amazed of how firm Ed is about the Gospel. And it helped me to realize that God wants us to be obedient so he can bless us. Like a perfect father.
To be sealed to Ed was so incredible, to see both of us in white in this amazing place where everything is so good and right.

Isit easy? nah. Being a butterfly that I am it is hard to live the commandments of latter day saints. Would I choose otherwise? NO!, I would not marry Ed in any other way because it is the link that makes us one in front of Heavenly Father. It is a prove to us that we can work and progress as a team. It is a comfort and Joy.
I love Eddie, I love him for loving God and the gospel. Because he has this wonderful spirit that gives and loves. I love him because he is my best friend and my family. I want to kill him right now cause he is on a night shift hahaha.
I can say without a doubt that joining the Church and going to the Temple with Ed was the rebirth of my spirit and the beginning of this amazing life here away from my old home. hard but mostly very very happy.

Thriving in a stressed- out world!!!

Short but sweet:
Physical well being
Emotional clarity
Relationship with others
With self most important
Skills and learning
Accept and love yourself and you will
be able to love others easily.
No destructive criticism.
Smile, laugh.
Boundaries.
Say no when you can't or you'll resent!
Spiritual life-where is your soul?

can't stop it

So, I am not stupid right? Don't Answer!!!
I know I have a sports injury yet whenever I hear music I must must dance!
There is a constant fight between my left brain and my right brain; "you're gonna be sorry "," I don't care" ," yes you do","no i don't shut up" ,"ok,don't come to me later", " yes i wil now let me shake it" etc.
what can you do? is there a 12 step for DA
Dancing is a huge part of my life...so let it be...I am hurting like a beast right now ,ouch! )-:

What's love got to do with it?

good title ha? I have no idea why i thought of it. actually today i feel like crying because this residency Ed has been in for the past 100 years is taking a toll on me. Through the years of his training I was constantly in shock of how much time and inhuman crap(like animal crap for example), they have to take. If you think that only foreigners are cheap labor wearing torn clothes etc, you need to know that there are white coat cheap laborers that have at least 2 degrees.
So you say, well it will pay off, so I say sure I know what yo mean but what is so disgusting is that now if they work 70 hours a week the old wigs laugh at them cause in their time they did 120hours a week and they are proud of it!!!! how can you learn anything when you have not slept in 40 hours? me and my big mouth wanted to go and talk to them many times , off course Ed will not
like that, it would be unprofessional for me to say "hey you are killing young doctors"(that's a funny scenario) . Obviously, it is redundant to say anything cause they know and they don't care cause the resident chose to be tortured so, zere you go. maybe if i spray some windex on them they will think straight , cause the big wigs are sleep deprived for years so the can't make good rules when their brains are chemically imbalanced.
FINIS