Back from Israel

It is quite hard to explain the mixed feelings i have about being an Israeli, who lives in Texas USA. I guess feelings are the best way to approach this. I feel Israeli in Texas , I feel American in Israel. I love being in Texas and feel so lucky that I decided to come here and build a life here. I especially felt it when I was in Israel for my bf wedding. I guess that for me the feeling of the geographical tightness in which Israel is established on, and the social "everybody is each other's business" is both wonderful and choking at the same time. Being a person who love sto be close to fam and friends , Israel is great but the private part of me the part that craves to choose out of a million option, the part that loves to be independent of influence, that part is Texan, American and with that comes the notion that I can be both , for I choose to be both Israeli and American.

This is quite deep I know, but it is a subject mant Israelis or other people who move away from their mother country deal with. For example Joyce the Irish, very similar to what I'm feeling (to the literature freaks out there.)